I realize there has been a major pause in posts the last two weeks, I have experienced the most difficult hurdle–no, more like monumental setback–in my life and it has been quite a struggle even knowing if I wanted to try to make it through this (I’m embarrassed to even admit that) but I had something very positive happen last night which made me realize I have to put myself into overdrive and do whatever is necessary to pull myself up out of the major life crap I got myself in to…there is no way that I’m going to let myself give up anywhere in the near future because I have three amazing and wonderful reasons why I have to face the bad decision I made and work as hard as necessary to prove myself a worthy and necessary person in this world and able to make not only everything right but better than it was before and to find the good in this really bad situation. I have never regretted anything in my life more than the path I allowed myself to take by making the string of decisions that I did for a short period of time there…but I can’t give up or throw my arms up in the air and say “well I messed up so that’s the end of me!” I would be crazy to do that, and that would be letting the situation be in control and get the better of me and that’s not me–I’m not going to let that happen–
I’m going to do whatever I have to do to make myself better because of all that’s happened the past twelve days and the doubters I know are out there can just….well they can just kiss my grits, and believe me that is me putting it nicely–I am not let the situation get me down, I am on a mission to turn everything around and to make myself an exceedingly better and more functional person than I ever have been before.
Just wait….you will see….
“Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson